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kaisoumods) wrote2024-01-02 02:14 pm
kaisoumods) wrote2024-01-02 02:14 pm
BLACK ORDER GROUP CHAT [BLACK ORDER MEMBERS ONLY] v.2
The Black Order: Kaisou Team
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[OOC: this is a catch-all group chat for the Black Order members to use however they'd like. This chat is open ONLY to Black Order members and is not actually part of the Libra app (but their own separate network). ]
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[Kid he is gonna just. Spray you. Forever. You give him such a headache and he's only stepping in because that's an annoyance and not because he doesn't want to see you getting yourself hurt worse. Obviously.
Probably a good thing the bracelets don't react to lies you say in your own head, huh?]
Whichever one lets me figure out how to make you stop being a fuckin' idiot the fastest.
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[... Somehow he actually remembers to watch his fucking mouth.]
—caught... some fish. To feel better. [HONK] Ignore that. I can't wait for Noct's new game.
[... that much is true actually.]
They told me to prove my innocence, so I did. I don't see the problem.
Do they want a five page written apology for the part where she murdered my boyfriend and I got mad about it?
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And yet.]
Okay. Fine, here we fuckin' go. I need to you turn your ears into the listening position, and I need you to try and retain at least some of what I'm gonna fuckin' explain to you here, okay? Okay.
[He's wandering off into his kitchen, bottles clinking on the feed as he finds whatever he hasn't drunk already, so he can sit down and have this conversation at all.]
You got every right to be really fuckin' angry about what she did to your boy. You even got a right to be angry about how they handled it, because they're dicks and that's how they roll. You're still relatively new here, and you joined 'bout as willingly as the rest of us, but I'm sure you've picked up by now that our bosses are fuckin' unhinged.
[He pops the lid off a bottle and takes a deep swig, grateful for the sharpness of the whiskey inside- it's going to make what he has to say next somewhat bearable.]
'Bout fifteen years ago, I was pretty high up in this fuckin' circus. I mentored this kid... Marlon. When he was eighteen, they decided he was ready to go on his first solo mission. I thought he was ready too, but it turns out they either didn't plan it right or willingly sent him into a fuckin' deathtrap because he did not survive that.
[He sucks in a deep breath, pushes onwards.]
I did what you did. Fucking screamed and railed against the fuckers every chance I got for letting someone I cared about fuckin' die and not give a shit about it. You know what it got me? Demotion after goddamn demotion and promises that I was gonna get myself Sealed if I kept it up. I didn't give a fuck and just kept being a goddamn thorn in their sides. Until they sent me Lapis. And then they finally had something they knew I loved more than I hated them. And they were not afraid to use her to keep me in fuckin' line.
[He finishes off his bottle, starts searching for a new one. ]
So when I tell you that you need to keep a fuckin' lid on it, I'm speaking from experience- because you might not be afraid of what they can do to you, but try and think what they can do to him- because I promise you, they fuckin' can and they will. He might not survive the next time.
[He finds another bottle, starts on that. ]
Now here's the not shit part. We're all in this exact same shit sandwich. Ain't none of us wanna fuckin' be here and all of us are leashed by those dicks one way or another. Point is, you're gonna have to find a way to survive being a Guardian - gotta find a way to endure this bullshit without flying off the handle and risking more than you're willing to lose. But you don't gotta do that alone. So, how about instead of throwing a goddamn fit every single time the Order open their mouths, you come talk to us? Fuck, come talk to me if you want to, despite popular opinion, I'm actually a good fuckin' listener.
...Or, y'know, I can just keep fuckin' spraying at you every single time you start screaming. But I reckon the first option is probably goddamn better. Idiot.
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He's not a bad listener when he shuts his mouth.]
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There's a keen sense of helplessness in all of this that Blade has been trying to avoid.]
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He runs his hand through his hair and lets out a low sigh.]
I'm sorry. [He doesn't apologize much. Savor it.] I can be a bit of a hothead. I realize you didn't have to share any of that with me, but you did.
I won't forget it.
[...]
Lapis is like a sister to me. She was one of the first people I could trust after I lost everything, and she never stopped believing that I could be saved.
You... raised her really well.
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S'alright. Like I said, I get why you're so damn angry. It's a perfectly reasonable thing to be angry about. It's just a case of figurin' out a better way to handle that that doesn't get you in deep shit you can't get out of, that's all.
[He gives a dismissive little sound to the sharing comment. It's fine, don't draw attention to the fact he's helping and being supportive. People might get (completely correct) ideas about him being someone who actually cares about others' wellbeing!
The comment about Lapis does bring a little smile to his face though. He's proud of her- his one single non-fuck up. ]
That sounds like her. Dunno how much I can take credit for that. [Lapis would absolutely say otherwise, but she ain't here.] But good, that's what I mean. You don't gotta deal with any of this shit alone. Hell, it'd be madness to try it. So just holler next time, alright?
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[He's sure if Dan Heng hears this he will get the most disapproving look because damn it Yingxing you know better than to be like this and yet.]
You sure you won't tell me to shut up?
[A pause, and a lick of humor:]
If you do, I'll just get louder.
[Not beating the husky allegations.]
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[That does pull a snort of laughter out of him.]
Trust me, I've connected those particular dots. [A sigh.] Okay, how 'bout this? So long as you come to me before you decide to mouth off to the higher-ups, I'll listen to you and won't tell you to shut up? Hell, I might even tell you that's something reasonable to scream at them about. Fair deal?